Saturday, July 14, 2007

Fighting the Black Dog

Fight the Black Dog

To be honest, I am a little nervous about actually posting this because first, I have a fear that if I dwell on it too much I'll relapse and then that throws me into panic.

What is the "Black Dog"? Well, it's depression.

I have struggled with Depression from the time I was 12 (I'm 19 now for reference). I've had my really low points and my almost completely better parts, thankfully I am now resting in the latter and I usually am until certain times of the month since my depression is caused by a hormonal imbalance that doctors always said "Just give it some time, you'll grow out of it." May I now take a moment to throw my chart in their face.

A huge help to me in this fight has been my knitting. And more accurately the fact that I can finish projects and see them turn into beautiful works of art that are appreciated. Which is why I've taken to listing what I've finished on the sidebar. It helps me see all that I've done. So even when I feel depressed and like I've wasted a year of my life since High School (I've finished almost 34 out of the 74 needed units to apply to nursing school) I can look and see what I've done.

So if you have your own story and you want to share it, go to the link above and check it out. I know my own story is pretty short and vacant but I'll be posting about this on a monthly basis and eventually I'll get it all out, I'm just not completely ready right now but I did want to bring awareness to this disease.


Christina Franklin said...

It's hard to form a comment that doesn't sound patronizing when I read it. Therefore, please know that that is not my intent when I say that I am inspired by your bravery.

Gloria said...

I'm glad you have found a hobby that helps you deal with this disease. It's also great that you are willing to talk about it. I have personal experience with anxiety disorders, and I also find that crafting helps keep me grounded. Best of luck!!!